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Mon, 31 Jul 2006 22:19:40 GMT

well here i am once again! i see it's been a little over a year since i was here last! things have been pretty good. matt and i are still together---now we have an apartment together that's located directly being the olde towne! it can be a lot of fun most of the time, but we have visitors an awful lot which can get quite tiresome. it's very convenient for everyone. i'm still working there a few nights a week. i'm thinking of quitting at michael's in about 3 weeks so i can pick up like two more days at the bar. it's just so close to home, and i'd make about the same amount in two days at the bar than a whole week at mikey's! i've been thinking about going back to school next spring too, so i'd have to quite then anyway. i'm also really sick of working 60 hours a week and sometimes never even having a full day off each week. ick. i love framing though so who knows.

my family is as crazy as usual. my cousin and his girlfriend practically robbed my grandmother a few months ago so they could buy crack. i wanted to murder him for that! i think he's still doing drugs now, but aparently nothing "as bad" as crack. i haven't seen him since, so i have no idea. other than that, everything is good. my sister eden is having another baby in february, so that will be exciting.

some of my friends are getting married now, which is just SO weird! we're all getting old, and it's scary. but hell, i'm ready to get married. shit, i want a house! not our shitty ass apartment. we just have too much junk for that small place.

anyway, i shadowboxed matt's very first skateboard for his birthday! it's quite a nice wall decoration. his friends also made a skate video, and they premiered it right up the street from my house at the sellersville theatre. it was awesome. lotsa people showed up, and it was a pretty good video.

i don't think there's much else to tell about my past year. well actually, i am leaving out most of it, but nothing sticks out in my mind. ah well, i'm sure i'll be back sometime soon (haha) to update on my wonderful life. i sure miss this place!

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 15:17:06 GMT

so today is matt's birthday! 25! old! i hope it's a fun day. i got him a goonies poster off ebay and then i framed it at mikey's. it looks pretty cool. i only hope he likes it! i also got him some books and the friday the 13^th boxset (which i already gave him). he told me he wanted to get the poster awhile ago. i hope it's the right one. but, it was practically the only one i could find.

we're going to the beach tomorrow with lynda. her birthday is tomorrow, so it worked out. i'm excited to go away, even only for one day.

lots of weird people from high school were in the bar last night. ok not lots, but some who i don't think had ever come in before. it was really, a pretty strange night. i ran my ass off, and it was kind of a nightmare. matt got drunk in about 45 minutes. he always comes in at some point, but he's been getting there pretty late recently. well, he got there at 1, and of course everyone bought him drinks. i was kind of annoyed by the end of the night. everyone got so drunk, which was really my fault. most of them always act pretty normal and not crazy. tom and his friends though were nuts! but he's another one of the bartenders, so it's ok for him. haha.

anyway, i'm hungry.

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 18:28:04 GMT

okay, now a survey i stole from it_certainly_is

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. natalie
2. natty
3. nad

THREE SCREENAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. justlikehenry
2. honkybach
3. adsparky6 (one of the first! haha)

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. i'm very polite when it comes to dealing with other people (like customers, etc)
2. i'm a hard worker
3. i'm pretty smart i suppose.

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my complexion
2. the weight i have gained since i started birth control
3. that i drink too much

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. italian
2. scottish
3. french canadian

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. spiders
2. the world
3. being alone

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. cigarettes
2. marijuana (don't worry i will have to quit soon)
3. matt

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. wife beater
2. pajama pants
3. nose ring

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE MUSICIANS:
1. david bowie
2. ani difranco
3. phish

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. tangled up in plaid-queens of the stoneage
2. what's mine is yours-sleater-kinney
3. gimme danger-the stooges

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. moving into my own apartment!
2. less drinking
3. less smoking

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (besides love):
1. fun!
2. trust/honesty
3. respect

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. i stopped going to college, and i don't know if i ever want to go back.
2. i want to own my own frame shop one day.
3. i want to own a bar someday.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE (or same) SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. eyes
2. smile
3. face in general (not that i'm shallow)

YOU JUST CAN'T:
1. try new foods
2. stand my retarded neighbors
3. stop biting my fingernails

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. decoupage
2. mosaics
3. being lazy/doing nothing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. have a drink :/
2. smoke some
3. get out of the house

THREE CAREERS YOU ARE CONSIDERING:
1. framing
2. business of some kind
3. writing of some kind

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. italy
2. france again
3. alaska

THREE KIDS NAMES:
1. sadie (which is what my good friend rosi had mentioned for her baby (she's pregnant! weird!) if it's a girl! so cute!)
2. abraham (what matt likes haha)
3. jane

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. everything!
2. travel across the world
3. marry matt

it's amazing i can still remember how to do all of this.

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 17:48:42 GMT

well hello! i haven't been here in quite some time. i've missed it, but i still haven't been able to get myself to post anything. things have been okay. nothing too exciting or new.
matty and i went to see dan bern at the point a few weeks ago which was something exciting. i got him to sign his book for me, and i bought a cd as well. it's a real shame that the point will be closing.
my brother in law had his 30^th birthday bash last saturday too which was loads of fun! we played quates with tommy, amber, the oldest horger brother brett (who's probably the coolest out of all of them!), and some other chick (i think his girlfriend) a lot of the time. and out front where no one could find us/steal our fun!
i think today we will be going to shangy's, that awesome grocery store-like beer place! i need to get myself a case of hacker-pshorr, which is some real good wheat ale kinda similar to blue moon. yum! i think we'll be getting our dads some cases too for their birthdays. i'm also supposed to go fishing with matt and possibly wes too. thank goodness it's kind of raining so maybe we won't be able to go! haha, although fishing can be fun at times. and maybe later we'll be off to finn mccool's to see their open mic like we normally do.
well ken at michael's (my frame shop manager) was just promoted to the store assistant manager, which may mean i will be promoted to his old position soon! i know we're getting a new manager soon, but eventually i may take over, which is pretty cool i think. (although i am pretty busy already with my position and bartending twice a week.)
which gets me to the point that i can finally afford to move out, which matt and i are trying to do sometime very soon! we're hoping to take wes's apartment when he moves out. he's supposed to move out either in a few days (which i doubt) or by the end of july (i hope!). that'll be good so i can still save a little more for it. or we can save more. matt's grandfather died a bit ago, and we have most of our furniture; all we need is a couch and we're all set! it's great. (not that he died, but that we have everything we need now!)
yeah, so a few months ago, i was in an accident leaving finn mccool's. some asshole decided to run a red light and hit me. it sucked. especially because i had a few drinks at the bar, so when the police came, i was arrested for dui! oh it was the most horrible night ever. i had to be taken that night for a blood test of course, and then they took me to get my pictures taken (including my tattoos) and to get my fingerprints. :( today was supposed to be my preliminary hearing, but my lawyer couldn't make it, so it'll be july 25^th. it's going to be $2500 for my lawyer and whatever other court costs i have, plus the cost for the ard classes, which i hope they will allow me to take. see, since there was a car accident involved, they may not let me, which really sucks! my lawyer did say however that since i was not the one who was at fault for the accident, no one was hurt, etc, it shouldn't be a problem. so that would mean i'd take the classes, lose my license for one month, and then be on probation for a year! if i don't get the classes, i will go to jail for 48 hours (scary!) and lose my license/be on probation for a year! i sure as hell hope they allow me to have the ard man, coz i wouldn't be able to stand not having a license for an entire year. (not to mention the jail time! yikes!) but, my lawyer thinks it'll all work out. afterall, those assholes all know each other, so i'm so sure he'll help me out.
next week is my fun yearly checkup so i can get my birth control refilled. oh how i am looking forward to it! haha. (it's really not that bad!) but the next day, i get to go to the beach overnight with my sister and matt for their birthdays. should be a fun time!! i can't wait to get away, even if it is only for a day. but i'll be going to folk fest at the end of august which is pretty much my only vacation this year. it'll be fun though.
does anyone know of any good face wash or anything really good to do for skin in general? i used to be on an antibiotic, but when i started taking the pill, i couldn't continue with them. now my face has been driving me crazy coz it just isn't clear, and i feel like i just look like shit all the time. i hate it! if anyone knows of anything, i'd greatly appreciate it. i heard arbonne has this good system that really works, but no one i know is having any parties anytime soon. lynda mentioned having a joint party, which sounds great to me! hopefully i get this apartment, and we can have it there!
well, i think i've rambled on enough for one day. maybe (only maybe) i'll be back again soon! :D

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 16:50:51 GMT

i have the worst cramps ever, and it's not even time for my period. tomorrow i start my sugar pill, so it's kinda weird. i hate it!

last night we stayed out too late again. of course i don't remember some things that happened when we got home. why does it always happen?! haha, i had a good time though except my sister strolled in around 1 and informed me of a new love interest (not her husband). i think they'll be getting a divorce soon, which is sad because i think al is great! oh well. not my life.

i ordered a pink ipod last night along with the wireless radio adapter thing for a little more than $350. i cannot wait for them to arrive! it's so exciting. i wasn't that interested when matt said he wanted to buy me one, but now i'm just so excited for it!

sean's in town, unfortunately for a funeral, but i hope he comes to see me at the bar tonight!

alright this is boring. maybe i will take a bath.

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 18:34:41 GMT

hello hello! and how was everyone's christmas?! mine was just special! i got some good shit! matt got me a beautiful bracelet and necklace, a little wooden box with a tree with heart leaves on it (so cute!), a framed picture i wanted, and a witch ball! i got lotsa cds and dvds from my parents, some books including a cabaret one and the elliott smith bio, a mat cutter, a righteous babe sweatshirt, gift certificates, etc. it was actually a really good holiday, and i'm quite happy! yeah. rosi and bernadette slept over christmas night, and it was a fun time. keyblur also spent the night as well as lynda and of course matt. it was a late night, and i hated waking up at 7 for work on sunday. ugh.

but! i have the next four days off from both jobs, and i am so glad about that. i think we're going to bernadette's for new years (as of now anyway), and i think dominick is coming with! him and bernie have been talking the last few times she's come up, and i want them to date! he's real fucking cute, and so is she. perfect!

ok i must go get some things at the store now and probably smoke a bowl coz i'm bored! :D

ooh and bernadette got me a framed shag print for christmas, but it hasn't arrived yet! i want it now!

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 19:15:57 GMT

so my computer is now working again after 9 or so months of it not working. apparently all i needed was a new keyboard! wtf. yeah well. i gave it to josh, monique's boyfriend, to fix, but he said there was nothing wrong with it. good thing.

matt and i are going to shangy's in emmaus soon. i can't wait! i wanna get a case of beer for the guys on christmas eve. but tom told me that a case is usually at least $100! yikeys! ah well, it'll be worth it.

matt and i watched napoleon dynamite last night. weird shit, man. haha.

kay, me go finish getting ready now. maybe i'll be around more often now that my shit works again. ciao!

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 21:11:09 GMT

hello! once again, it's been quite awhile since i've been around here. the rasputina show that was over a month ago was a great one! i caught up with rae beforehand, and we hung out during the show! it was nice to see that cute little thang. i didn't know for sure she'd be there, but i had a feeling she would be! i've also seen badly drawn boy and the dead milkmen since i've been here last, and they were also great shows! oh and friday i went to my sister's yoga place down the street for a drum circle hosted by jim donovan from rusted root, and that was pretty cool too. i didn't want to drum though, but it was cool to sit/listen/watch. saturday night i went to a wine and cheese party at paula's house. it was okay but at times annoying as hell (really just my sister and her friend erica). yeah.

it has been nice having a long weekend for once. and melina is taking my shift at the olde towne tomorrow night which will be nice too. i figured since i'm pretty much done my christmas shopping, i'd give up my extra money for the week. all i need to do is buy a bunch of bottles of wine, etc. and a gift certificate for matt's parents, and then i'm all done! i got i think 11 things custom framed for christmas presents, and 8 of them were only $24.99! yeah! good shit. i also got a few things framed for myself, which i should not have done, but oh well. i also bought a 38" by 38" andy warhol poster for $50-one of the marilyn monroes, but mostly black with silver/blue. it's nice, but too big to be framed anytime soon! i did frame one of matt's posters for almost $200, and that was 70% off! yikeys!

tonight there is a big union meeting in fort washington for former shop n save employees! i guess we're receiving some sort of settlement check! i hope it's for a lot! haha. even if it's not, it'll be nice to see carol and adria and whoever else might be there! (i'm kinda nervous, it could be kind of scary!) my mama is driving down with me, and we are going for dinner and maybe some shopping too. should be exciting.

umm. ok yeah. i can't think of much more at the moment, but maybe i'll be back again in less than a month! love to you all.

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 23:20:37 GMT

so matty will be here around 8 so we can go to the olde towne and pre-game before rasputina! yeeeah! i'm excited! if you're at the show, look for me! i will be with the two cutest boys there. just look for the one with the crazy curls on top of his head! haha. i'm really excited! i'm making matt drive my car, that is, if i get too drunk to drive myself, which i am hoping to do. :p should be a fun time; just hope he gets some pots for us for the drive there and back!

i got his framing back, and it looks wonderful! my mama liked it too! haha. i still have a few more things to frame for other christmas presents. i can't believe i actually have all the christmas presents i do! starting early really is a good plan!

i've been feeling good...i have 3 of 4 credit cards completely paid off! it's an excellent feeling. actually, i have about $100 left on the one still, and then i'll be down to 3. that's about $1500 paid off and only about $800 more to go! DAMN. i'm going to cancel all but my one credit card (limit is only $700) and my vicoria's secret card (i just need that one, ok! haha). pretty soon, i'll be able to actually start putting money in my savings account. yes! and i'll be making some good money in november because tommy and amber are going on vacation, so i'll be bartending 5 days the one week! i'm gonna die, but it'll all be worth it in the end!

there was something else i wanted to put in here for you all to know, but it has slipped my mind. shittay. well, i'll be back later if it comes back to me! loves to you all.

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 17:18:25 GMT

oh, and i spent about $175 framing a picture of quentin tarantino spraying off the PUSSY WAGON! (you may have seen it in entertainment weekly.) yeah! i got a nice quadruple mat and a nice, thick, black frame. it's for matty for christmas. i would have spent even more if rich charged me for a dry mount AND the most expensive glass. fuck! hopefully we're still dating in two months! haha. and hopefully he enjoys it! :) i'm thinking about framing stuff for my mom and dad for christmas too. i just have to find some good stuff worth framing!

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 16:50:02 GMT

hello! it's been ages since i've been on this thing. not much new going on...still playing with matt a lot. working about 60 hours a week, but it hasn't been too bad coz i've been making lots of money! most of my bills are paid off or close to being paid off, and it's such a great feeling! pretty soon, i'll be able to start saving money. got the new elliott smith cd friday, and i can't stop listening to it. it's just so beautiful. i almost cried in the qmart when i bought it. so sad. also got the new rasputina, badly drawn boy, and the reissue of jeff buckley's grace. i still haven't gotten to watch the dvd. next thursday, keyblur and matty are going to see rasputina with me at the troc! i can't wait. keyblur loves them now, and it makes me excited! next month, i'm going with them and a bunch of others to see the dead milkmen, also at the troc. and we just found out that they added a second show, which we might go to as well. next friday, i am going to caitlin's halloween partay with matt. yay! it's been so long since i've seen her, and it sucks! it should be great fun. this friday, matt and i may go to the ambler theatre to see evil dead 2! haha. i'm not quite into it, but he really loves all that shit, so it should be a good time. when i told him about it though, he didn't seem all that interested. maybe coz it's ambler-not the closest place to go see a movie? who knows! i told him i'd drive. hmm what else. i think next saturday is the halloween party at the olde towne, unless they switch it to friday. mike keeps changing it. if it's saturday, i have to dress up for work. ugh. but! if i have to, i'm gonna be st. pauly girl! hahaha bernadette gave me the idea yesterday. but how am i gonna find a costume? i better start looking soon!

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 23:35:24 GMT

not much new. working and shit. mike wants me to work saturday afternoons at the ot, but i'm pretty positive that michael's will hate that idea. hmm. new store opens in a few weeks in ne phillay...larry told me today that "my name came up at the manager's meeting", and they want me to go work there for their first week in business! yeehaw! i suppose they want me to help train the new framers. fun stuff! it's kinda far, but i think it'll be fun and exciting! besides, it's kinda cool that my name was one that came up! who knew i was so well known within the company!? ;) been spending a lot of time with matty, but what else is new! we've been pretty inseperable since we first started dating, which by the way, will be three months (whoa!) on friday! crazy! he's so cute. haha he just called. i meet him in 20 minutes.

caitlin, i read about andrew puzinas in the reporter, but it was only a death notice...do you know what happened? shit, that sucks! i hate when people die...

i saw adria this past weekend with justin at the ot! oh man how i miss her! she is so cute! she looked good, seemed to be doing pretty well, etc. i hope i see her again soon! :)

ok goodbye! i play a little game, go buy cigs, and then it's off to the bar for a cocktail or three.

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 03:12:20 GMT

so i did my first real shift at olde towne on tuesday and made $240!!! i couldn't believe it! it was quite exciting! it's hard work but definitely worth it...$30 an hour, hell yeah! my credit cards will be paid off in no time! woohoo!

tomorrow at midnight, we're all going to the ot for scott's birthday! should be fun. i think we're hanging out with them again saturday but not all night because matty and i have a wedding to go to on sunday! yeah! i got a sexay dress at ross for $12.

he's playing poker right now with the guys-i'm waiting for him to call. i need to get outta here, my mom is going nuts. ahhh she is so annoying. i think she's calling my name. fuckas!

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 22:59:52 GMT

so no one liked my pictures, but that's cool! :p

last night was wild and crazy. karli came down to visit...she had to pick up her boyfriend at the phila airport, so she stayed here overnight. they came and met me at the ot, and it was much fun. we were there till at least 230. i did some bad things, but i had a good time. yes. when i went to play with jen for a minute, keyblur called from across the street saying he didn't want to go home. him, kate, and bryan came over to play afterwards. lynda had some random dude prank me, and he left me a message saying i gave him my number at the olde towne! haha i was so confused! i called him back, and kate and keyblur talked to him too! haha. lynda called then and told me it was a joke. uh duh. anyway, we played some asshole-haha one round. we woke up my mama too! but she came down and had a couple drinks with us! haha. i was really fucked up! keyblur ended up staying till like 5! wowee! and those mothas stole a bunch of my pictures! grrrr. haha now i have to figure out which ones they took!

i will be off to the folk fest in about 45 minutes. my tickets are only good from 6-10, and i worked till 6. matt's gonna try to sneak me into the camping somehow, but i have a feeling it won't work out. it's cool...he'll be home tomorrow anyway! but i hope i can get in and play with all of them!

i'm going to be really exhausted tomorrow. i was a half hour late to work today because of last night! i need to control myself!

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 23:09:33 GMT

i just spent about an hour scanning and uploading pictures from the past month or two! have a look see! (new pictures are under "summer 2004".) the slideshow is much better than the thumbnails! haha. there are many of my matty and the crazy people i've been hanging out with and the crazy things i've been doing! fun stuff.

anyway......matty left me today at 3 for the next five days! :( i'm sad! haha. not really, but i know i will be. i'm jealous. he's camping and working at the folk fest, and unfortunately mikey's didn't give me off, like i knew they wouldn't. but it's cool. i can't afford it anyway. hopefully my aunt will give me weekend passes so i can at least go for a little bit. i think keyblur will probably come with me, but i also hung out with kristin last night, and she said she'd go too. so we'll see. it's going to be a looong weekend, that's for sure. but it'll be good since matt and i see each other every single day. it's still sad, but oh well.

last weekend was shannon's foosball birthday party. it was kinda boring, but i didn't mind just sitting there watching everyone else play. after that, we went to a party at blair's house, and it was a lot of fun! keyblur and i had a heart to heart about the girl he likes, getting out of sellersville, and other things. played some asshole with him and some other ladies and some guy, garrett maybe? everyone was really wasted, and we ended up staying till maybe 4.

sunday i watched the boys play soccer. it was kinda boring just sitting there, but i didn't mind it. went out. bernie came up monday night, and jordan and brendan met up with us. last night, we played with rosi, pat, kristin, and jenyn, casey, jay, and o'leary came in at midnight because casey turned 21! yippy!

today i drove all over creation for matt...went to easton to go to utopia so he could get a new pipe and whip-it things for fest (yeah, cool i know). got him beer and liquor, went to walmart for a cooler and shit. watched him pack up some of his shit, and then we said goodbye. now i'm just relaxing. i tried looking up mixed drink recipes so i could write down some common ones, but there are just too many! i start at the olde towne by myself next tuesday! ah! i'm scared!! but last night wasn't too busy, so hopefully it will be the same way next week. mary kate said she'd make at least $150 on a slow night though! that'll really help. and i might be picking up saturdays too with melana. yeah!

i keep forgetting to take my birth control around the same time everyday! argh! i take it around 5:30 usually, and last night i didn't till 9:30, and i just took it again right now. fuck! the doctor said it didn't have to be the exact time everyday, but shit! i should at least be taking it around the same time. i need to start focusing.

mmm yes. i hope jenyn and casey and all them come to o t later for casey's birthday fun. i do not need to be going out, but i don't want to get bored and depressed! yeah.

let me know how you all like my pictures! :)

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 21:46:44 GMT

last night was the big crazy bus trip to the citay for bridget's 21^st. it was a lot of fun! i got started early, maybe around 4:00 at the olde towne with my sister. i stayed for about an hour, and then went home. matty and me went back around 6 so he could eat. went to adam and jill's till about 7:30, when we were to meet everyone else at landis to get on the bus. there was a second bus leaving from there too, but they were going to club 218 on south street to see chaos clique. the bus was cool. the man allowed us to smoke on it which was a good thing. i got pretty drunk by the time we got to dave and buster's. i don't know, i'm not into video games all that much, but i guess the place was pretty cool. matt got me a $20 card which i used on only one game, a shooting game, and i sucked at it! haha i made friends with derek's girlfriend, but i forget her name! chelsea or christie maybe? she was really nice and cute! and i love derek! he's so nice. his sister died recently in a car accident. :( anyway....after an hour there, we met at the bus again and made our way to south street. went to 218, saw a little bit of chaos clique, but i wanted to find my sister so we left the band and went back downstairs. my sista was there thank goodness! (i knew she would be-her ex-boyfriend, dave owns the bar, and she'll do anything to go there to see him! hahaha!) i feel bad though, i only talked to her for maybe 10 minutes, and i also never said goodbye! phooey. yeah well. matt and i pretty much just sat at the bar until we left. i was fucked up, and he was really fucked up! haha. he lost his glasses lense a million times, but i found it for him each time! when we got back to the bus, he passed right out. haha he did at least 6 beer bongs on the ride down. crazy! and i told him i loved him too! yeah! it was a good night. fucking chris didn't go because the night before, apparently he od-ed on coke! (and no, he's not dead.) such a disapointment. bridget wasn't too happy that he missed her birthday, but it was a good time anyway. everyone pretty much died when we got on the bus except for me and a few others. danya said she was happy to see me and matt together even though she doesn't really know me. it made me real glad. we got back to perkasie close to 4am, and we went back to sleep at matt's. woke up around 1, laid around, watched sleepy hollow, smoked some, and he brought me home. last night i told all the guys i would play soccer with them today at 5, but i backed out. i was gonna call kristin to invite her to play, but i didn't. i need some time here to reflect. haha. i'm gonna take a bath real soon to relax. i took my first birth control pill about a half hour ago! iieee! :p i think i'm gonna go eat wings at matt's later. yeah. ok time for a smoke and some fun and games. yay-ah.

frrrrrrraaaaaaaame shop!

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 07:07:56 GMT

at work today i shot a framer's point completely through my middle finger on my left hand. i don't understand how it happend, but it was bad. it went through the center of the back of my finger, came out the side of the front of my finger, and stayed that way for about two hours. (got it? haha) pretty much, there was a piece of metal sticking out both sides of my finger. it was sick. surprisingly, it wasn't too painful. and the scary thing is, 7-8 hours later, i still don't feel any pain. a little before 9, the doctor finally gave me novacaine and pulled the fucker out. my finger is still numb, and it's 3am. should i be worried? he said the numbness would last a few hours, but 6!? yikes. anyway, tonight was a nightmare. but ya know what, it wasn't so horrible. i've really never been happier. it feels great. i don't know, the past two months have really, and i mean really, brightened up my life. i'm still a bit frightened, but i think things will be okay. this saturday there's a big bus trip for bridget's 21^st! i'm a little nervous about it, but at least i'll have matt and keyblur. and i'm sure chris and eric will be there. i guess i'll know a lot of people. it's still scary though! a whole greyhound bus, and there are no empty seats! going to the city! ah! it just freaks me out. but i'm sure it'll be an exciting evening....well, it's been a looooong night, and i have to be back at work at 9. bonsoir tout le monde!

the days are all running together

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 22:40:40 GMT

it's been awhile. been hanging out and whatnot, not the most exciting, but i've been pretty busy. i can hardly even remember the things that have happened since the last time! haha. me and bernie went out last week...it was pretty fun. matt was at the dave show, but we hung out with willis, keyblur, etc. i hung out with kristin this week! it was quite exciting! she had called me sunday, and rosi and i called her back tuesday night i think, while we were at the o.t. them two plus patrick and matt came over wednesday for some cards and scrabble and a bit of drinking. we also smoked a blunt with my mom! haha. it was sick. but it was real fun! thursday we went out again. friday i wasn't going to go out, but eden called me, and i hadn't seen her in weeks! so i met her, and then matt came out too! yippy! jenyn and rosi showed up later, and then kristin came in too with her boyfriend jeff and their friend louie. the guys were really wasted. it was a fun time. we went to johnny campbell's after so matt could play some poker with the boys. willis passed out, he was sweating so bad! and i even played a few rounds! haha. i sucked. :p yesterday matt and i layed around for hours, and then we met rosi, pat, jenyn, and dan at the o.t. before going to the CREEKSIDE CABARET! haha, strip club! it was kinda scary...we saw a few guys that we graduated with, and also ashleigh goodenough was one of the strippers! eww. ahahaha. it was kinda weird, but i didn't mind it much. i didn't sit at the bar and give the girls dollars though-i'll have to next time. haha. back to o.t. after that, kate was in a skirt! wowee! she was all cute. after the bar closed, we went back to johnny's for cards again, and we ended up staying till like 6:30! ah! i kinda hated it, but i kept my mouth shut and dealt with it. i mean, i didn't mind hanging out, i love to as you all know, but i was just so fucking exhausted. it worked out though, matt won all the money. (a whole $27!! yeah!) he's playing soccer now with the boys, and i am doing nothing. i need to relax, shit. i played a little violin today, but it didn't work out well because i can't find about 75% of my books (all the good ones!) or my shoulder rest. fuckas! i'll have to wait till my parents come home so i can see if mama knows where my shit is. yeah. but now i'm gonna have a smoke and pamper myself for a bit.

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 07:21:13 GMT

OH MY GOD, I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS.

now my life is really complete! ;)

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 07:16:09 GMT

been having fun. been going out with matt mostly. of course everyone else has been there too. wednesday night at the perk was actually fun this time. i got my drinks for free. :) yeah! on thursday rosi, pat, and nicole met matt and i at the county theater in doylestown, and we saw coffee and cigarettes. it was kinda weird but pretty cool! fucking pat was wasted though and wouldn't shut up. oh it was annoying! saw a pretty cool band, laslo, at finn mccool's friday. they were good. played some foosball too. went to o.t. too of course, and then i stayed at matty's. saturday was my cousin nick's wedding. it was a morning ceremony/afternoon reception, which was kind of different. it was pretty boring, but i got many, many drinks from the open bar. (starting at 1pm!) yes. lynda and i totally kept drinking and drinking. i didn't feel that drunk, but really, i was. haha. me and my sistas got back around 5-5:30, and we went straight to olde towne. matt came then too. it was fun, but thankfully, we only stayed till like midnight. i think i woulda died if we stayed till close. spent the night at his house once more, and we stayed in bed till like 2 this afternoon! he slept most of the time, but i wasn't really tired, so i just kinda stared at everything in his room. (there's a lot to look at!) came home till about 7:30, and then went back to matt's. watched 50 first dates, secret window, and some of the storyteller (jim henson). it was a really nice time. it all just keeps getting better and better, let me tell you. i don't know, it just feels different. i'm really glad that things are going this good, but i'm still kinda scared. i really don't think i have much to worry about though. except! sometime last week, sarah bruno (matt's ex) was at the bar, and she was really wasted, causing a scene like usual, and she told kate that she wanted to fight me! (keep in mind, i have never said one word to this girl.) kate told her that if she tried anything, she would be right there to back me up. so sarah told kate she'd kick her ass if she got in her way! what the fuck! haha! i was a little scared-i mean, she's fucking crazy! matt was so pissed, and they had it out for awhile. luckily she left right after they yelled at each other, and things were very nice and good again. until she showed back up! haha thank god amber loves me and not her. she told sarah no more drinks for her. sarah wanted to come in for "water" (yeah, she just wanted to kill me i'm sure!), and amber refused to let her back in! whew! it's been the big talk at the o.t. since, and everyone is totally on my side! yeah! my sisters totally want to kick ass. i'm happy that everyone likes me! it's nice to know, ya know? but apparently sarah apologized to kate the next day. she was definitely just really wasted, but she always gets out of control like that at the bar. kinda scary really. crazy bitch. oh! and yesterday was a month since matt and my first date at finn mccool's to see happy dog. aww. i like that idea. i need to go to bed. i'm fucking exhausted, and i know my cramps will be coming back any time now. uggghhh.

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 18:08:09 GMT

oh how i love you livejournal! i just had the biggest entry, and now i must start again! i'll just do a quick recap of the past few days.

friday
-decided to leave lbi early (too many kids and a whole lot of commotion! i had to run away!)
-matt came to pick me up (oh it was such a nice reunion!)
-went to the o.t.
-played with kate, keebler, julie's bro (name?), and probably some others!
-afterhours partay (haha) at my house
-i was dead to the world, so they all left pretty soon after
-dropped my captain and coke, shattered the glass; made for a really sticky kitchen floor
-matty and i went to bed

saturday
-matt slept real late, i got up early and cleaned/did laundry (yay me!)
-he left around 4, i got my pictures developed, showered, etc.
-came back a few hours later
-watched this crazy movie about an old folks home, one guy thinks he's elvis, the other thinks he's jfk, and they're trying to stop a back-from-the-dead mummy from sucking the souls out of the other old people! haha! it was crazy, but i can't remember the title!
-(he's all into those cheesy horror movies/b-movies/etc.)
-off to o.t. for another fun night!
-darts, etc. then we followed brian to his house so matt could get some ganja
-got to see bridget! oh how i missed her! she's so cute!
-took one bong rip, and it totally fucked me up! yeah! it was much fun!
-back to o.t.
-then to buck's house for afterhours poker.
-i tried one round, but i was pretty dead from the pot/alcohol mixture; i think i passed out for an hour or so
-somehow fucked my toe up leaving buck's (i think!?)...haha i musta stubbed it on something somewhere because there's a nice big hole right above the nail! damn, it hurts
-back to my house again for sleeps

sunday
-back to work!
-wasn't too bad, a little busy, but we were outta there pretty quickly at the end of the night
-came home, ate, showered, watched the fireworks from the back yard with my mama, went to matt's
-smoked some
-watched slums of beverly hills and then another one of his movies, which i also can't remember the title of. another b-movie, not really horror, but really bloody, a lot of sex, some weird gay twists and turns, serial killers...it was weird, but really, i kind of liked it! (and those kinds of movies are totally NOT my type!)
-i slept there, well for a few hours, until he had to leave for work at 5:30am! yikes!

today i am not doing much. when my mom gets home from work, i am gonna go grocery shopping with her. matt will probably call me way later, after he's had a nice, long nap. hopefully we can go get some drinks later. i took a day off, i'm ready for some more! yeah! just gotta watch myself with my money this week. i don't have much for the next two weeks since i paid at least $350 in bills yesterday. and my check next week is gonna suck for sure! (only one week! arrrrgghhh) yeah well! pretty soon i'll be caught up on all my bills, then i can save money to get the fuck outta here! (home or sellersville! fuck! maybe even pennsylvania! ooh!) yeeeeah!

i'm gonna smoke a cig.

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 15:45:35 GMT

hello! i'm on a short break from my vacation at lbi. i had to drive home yesterday to bring matt back. i'll be leaving in probably 20 minutes to make my voyage back! yeah!

we got to the beach around 2 on saturday. eden, al, and little ashley (who is so fucking cute!!!) were there already, and bernadette, scott, and tim met us at the house after we arrived. let me just say, it was probably the best 4 days of my life! haha! we went beaching everyday, drank a lot every night, played lotsa games, and just had a great time.

saturday night bernadette passed out way early, and us 4 went nightswimming in our panties! oh it was so much fun! i was so scared to do it, but damn was it worth it! it was so nice.

sunday we saw fireworks at bay village, and they were pretty good. came back home, drank some more. played some more games (suits! it's the best!). scott set off his corny ass fireworks. another session of nightswimming, this time bernadette came too! a lot later, bernadette, matt, and i went back to the beach, and some how scott and tim were missing for hours! they were to follow us because they hadta finish their beers! well, aparently, they both passed out on the beach, tim got lost walking back, and for some reason scott decided to sleep in his car, when he had to go INSIDE for the keys! hahaha! crazy shit.

my parents came monday, which actually turned out to be ok! we got pizza, did some drinking, played some michigan rummy. my mom, matt, and i did a bunch of shots of jager! haha my mom loved it! us 3 then went for a walk on the beach, and it was fun. we were gonna nightswim, but my mama was scared for us. also, the water looked pretty damn rough, so we gave up. my mom talked to me about if i have sex with matt or not, and i was surprisingly honest and open about it. yeah! and they let us sleep in the same room together! my dad just said "i don't want to hear any moaning!" hahaha...he meant eden and al too though! ;)

matt told me "i love you so much!" but i don't know if he was just really drunk or what. but he was really cute, and it was so exciting! yesterday was his birthday, and i made him a mosaic box with an elliott smith cd inside. he loved it, but the box didn't turn out as nice as i hoped it would. yeah well, he said it was the best birthday he's had in a looong time! :) so yay! we came home and played at the olde towne for a few hours. he came back and stayed here with me, and t'was great fun!!!

i'm gonna be real sad and lonely for the rest of the week! :( matt might come back friday till saturday, but i kinda doubt it. but it'll be nice to see him when i get home on saturday!

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 07:09:04 GMT

hello!

things have been REAL good! i've been playing with matt almost everyday....there've been a few days in between where i didn't see him, which is a good thing. i'm really scared things won't work out, but shit! i feel like this is for real. he like totally loves me, and he is just so fucking cute!!!!!

awwwwwwwwww. i had dinner at his house this eve. watched some movies and played a bit. twas so much fun! and i heard the fucking lions roaring!!!!!!!! (his neighbor has some sort of license to have lions at his home! NO JOKE!) then rosi picked me up around midnight, and we went to the o.t. i sat with keebler and dominick (romeo) for some time. then me, rose, dom, and another dude played a few rounds of darts. we're tied-2 and 2. we tried to call chris (loser) afterwards for fun stuff, but he was not interested. yeah well. he sucks at life, and everything else.

tomorrow will be fun! microdermabrasion at 10am, then sometime me and bern are going to old navy (shawna, i will send your money ASAP), then another late night at the o.t. yeeeeeeeeah! matty is playing poker with wes and some other boys at 8, and then he joins us for some cockytails! i can't wait to see the mf-er! awwwww he's so sweet.

he called me today and said he just wanted to talk to me! it was like 3pm...i was actually pretty surprised that he called, and so early too! and he was just so cute! aw man. AW man! he's the best.

i want to kiss him.

there's a scary ventriloquist doll in this room, and it's really, really fucking frightening! it has this evil little smile, and i hate it.

well, i'm going to bed. i love you all. i'll be back soon with more juicey details! :p

Fri, 25 Jun 2004 05:42:53 GMT

i definitely have a virus.

i can't do anything on this piece of shit.

but, just so you all know, me and matt are definitely "one"! :) yeeeeeeeeeeah! he's so fucking cute.

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 23:05:20 GMT

hey alright. i don't know if any of you like primus/tape trading, but i was wondering if anyone knows where i can get copies of some of their recent shows. thankies!

going to watch pecker with matt in an hour. then o.t. for cockytails! i like that.

and guess what! i am a new fan of tampons. (it's sick, i know.) i refused to use them ever since i first got my period in 5^th grade. i feel like a new woman! :p